The 2008?

This blog is so dead. Actually i do wanna update some stories of my life in here few times ago, but as usual too lazy. So, alright, 2 more days to 2009. 2008 just seems too fast for me, everything like a blink, the 2008 count down last year is still so fresh in my mind but soon, i have to count down for the coming 2009.

Been asking myself: what did i do in this year? 365 days aren't short you know. Flashed back my memory, a good friend of mine flew to Adelaide on feb, it wasn't taste good when i was seeing her back shadow walking into the checkpoint. Ok, further up, i received a news which wasn't sound great for me and i had a major accident on april. You could view the pictures in the last post. Generally, there weren't any big cases happened in this year, i've been through sadness, disappointed, regretful, and some of hapiness maybe? oh ya, i have learned mahjong and spanish as well.

So, another year, another birthday and another christmas have gone. What's coming up next in 2009? Will it be a new revolution for me? or I will still being the same sad-ass? We will find out soon, right? stay tuned.
Happy New Year guys!

It's time to update.

I realized that it's been a long time that i last posted my blog right? In the last few posts, i was just posting up pictures with little of words.. haha.. i guessed that it's because of this part of human being - laziness.

So, what could i say here? seriously i have no idea.. last months i went through some birthday bashes of some friends of mine, i don't feel like uploading the pictures up.. you know, later everyone thought that this isn't a blog but a photo gallery. Had a cool but kind of normal September, erm.. almost mahjong once, twice or even three times in every week. I think that i'm addicted to it =.=

One night in last few weeks ago, Andrew sent me this song titled 'The Man Who Can't Be Moved', and asked me to read on the lyrics.. god damn him, he related the lyrics to me. But i found out that i'm actually agree to him.. Damn! Anywhere, it is a good song, its depending on you for rating it as an 'emo' or an 'idiot who can't be moved' kind of song. Oh ya, i'm kinda into this song by Raymond Lam - 愛不疚. I was always thinking about my own self, what kind of 愛 that i'm actually having? 愛不疚? 愛不够? or 愛不到? My personal problem has been a topic for my friends to 'discuss a.k.a laugh' on.. about I'm an idiot in this, in that. What I think is the 'emo' time has past away, now I'm not really sure about what should I do about it.. maybe that one day I will be totally change? Right? I mean maybe la.. who knows about the futures.

Alright, i guess that's all of it in this post.. don't feel like writting an endless essay =.=
Hasta La Vista Babies!

Coolest ever!

Know why I posted this picture of basketball? This is a birthday gift that i received on today and which is delivered all the way from Australia by my dearest friend Val. It was a shocked and surprised when I received it, this basketball definitely is the coolest gift that I've ever received. Thanks once again to you, Val.

My be-earlier birthday

My birthday supposed to be on 2nd of September, but my buddies decided to celebrate it earlier for me on today - 1st of September at Neway. Thanks to them, I enjoyed the day and here are some pictures.

Cake bought by them. Named 'Tim, The Mad Dog' =.=

Wey kok and me.

Idiot face

Group of 5 excluding the photographer.

Group of 6 including the photographer.

Siok-ing sendiri -.-

Ccy, Jeremy

Back to hometown - Cameron Highlands

As usual, pictures describe:
Part of the farm

Flowers

Relatives - Men

Relatives - Women

Siblings and cousins

DJ's birthday @ Maison

Went to *D*-Douglas and *J*-Jared birthdays on 21st night at Maison. I'll let the pictures describe it.


The stars of the night Jared(left-grey) and Douglas(middle-black)

Absence of light

Last night, during the beer chilling session in Eckywoobee, I've experienced in the state of being dark for around 3-4 minutes twice. How could this happened? Alright, here the story goes..

I was drinking and chilling with friends during that time, after around an hour, I felt like going to the toilet, when i stood up, my eyes suddenly seeing everything in a very bright condition and about 10 seconds later, it was slowly getting darker and darker until I couldn't see anything but only darkness. I was like blinded on that time, honestly to you, it was kinda scary. I didn't know what happened to my eyes and what's the reason causing that. Even until now, I'm still curious about it. I stood by a side and made some rest, after around 3-4 minutes later, I felt my vision were coming back, I was be able to see everything after that. I got back to my seat and continue chilling, but after around 15 minutes later, the problem came back. This time it's even longer than the first time, it was around 5 minutes. So I do the same thing of what I did, with some rest, my vision came back again. This is the first time I been into this kind of condition, completely darkness.

A simple update

It's been a long time that I didn't update my blog, so what can i say here? Actually there's something that I wanted to write them out, but I don't know how to write about it or maybe it's not don't know but a simple don't want.

Currently, my msn personal message 'My heart bleeds no more, now it's been turned to stone'. Ya it's true, I'm bored in love, I'm bored in issues, and I'm bored in wasting time. Stoned heart might be the right way to be.

Alright, update a bit about my life. Holidays ended, school started. Got to langkawi during holidays, and pictures are in my facebook, lazy to upload here. So that's all i guess, Adios.

Genting 03 may 08

No words, pictures describe:


Me, Mun and Douglas


The Energizers





The group of 7





Rolling


Flying


Lepak-ing

Two guys in one cup

Collision

It's a long story but I didn't feel like talking too much about it, so this is the summarized version. Last night, time around 9pm plus, on the way back to home after 14 hours staying at outside for hanging around, studies and assignment. In the condition of tiring, at the place which I can reach home for around 10 minutes, while I was thinking about something, suddenly the car's tires and breaks were having some problems, car sliding caused me got into a wrong road and the car was slightly spinning to the 60 degree so the car (Volkswagen Golf) which at the right hand side of me banged on my driver's side door. At that sudden, my head banged on the side window, car lost control and went out to the drain which at the opposite road. Luckily the car didn't got into the drain but on the drain, alright, that's all i guess, so now.. enjoy the pictures.. sorry about the quality of the pictures.

The Truth

Personal problems.
Depressed, unhappy, sad.
I don't want to talk about it.
I refuse to speak.
I don't want to think about it.
Instead, I become distracted, and I wonder off through-out the little world inside my mind.
The smiles I put, not the true smile you always see,
just the act I put on for you, so you don't see the pain.
Just frowns, pure tears.
And those deep honey eyes you get lost in, those you see,
I block them with fake happiness, so my misery is hid beneath.
Let me cry.
Let me deal with this pain.
But don't feel bad for me,
don't feel sorry.
Let me be.
I'll be ok, I'll be alright, if you just let me be.
This is real,
no jokes,
no play,
not fake,
pure truth.
Not a scam, or a lie.
Just my actual emotions expressed underneath letters.
I'm not ok.
I can't deny.
But do not worry.
Just let me be who I want to be.
Leave me alone, I need my space.
Don't we all, on those sad days?
Don't try to cheer me up, I'm "cheerful" enough.

Injury, ruining my life

About this title Injury, I would have to start it from around 2years plus ago, on a day of the december 2005, injury this word has started to ruin my life. During a basketball match at my housing area, I was injured badly on my left knee, I went for the doctor and he told me that I've damaged seriously on my left knee, he said during that match I was putting too much of pressures on my knee and with the twisting forces, I've teared the ligaments of the left knee. God! From the words that the doctor said, I thought that I could never play basketball again. But luckily after the resting of the few months later, I was be able to play sports again. So the good things went on until it's reached on last year, during the basketball again, I injured on the same spot of the knee again. This time the injury is much more serious than the one that I had, went for the doctor again and he said it could heal but this is going to take a very long time. So alright, I promised to myself that I will quit basketball for a long time, but the problem was I cou ldn't be able to handle the excitement of my body for playing basketball, so I went back to play basketball and I thought that my knee would be ok if I didn't put so much pressures on it. But I was wrong, I hurt my knee for more than 10 times in last year.. I hurt until I didn't want to care about it anymore, everytime I hurt my knee I rest for few days then I went back to play again and again. I've been into this kind of situation for around few months, injured,rest, play, injured, rest, play. Loads of my friends were asking me to have a serious care about my knee, asking me to go for the western therapy or surgery, but I didn't even bother on any of them.. I always saying that 'Ya la, I will go for it when I break my knee.' This sounds kinda stupid right? Finally on yesterday, during basketball again, I jumped for blocking my friend and when I was going for landing, I felt that my body has lost it's balance, I landed with my left leg and oh god, I heard a huge sound of 'Bi-Li-Ba-Lak!!', few seconds after that I can felt the pain is going around on my knee, at that moment I was thinking 'Shit! Did I broke my leg?' all of my friends on the court were surrounding me and I was laying on the ground. I really thought that I've broken my knee.. but luckily around 5minutes later, I could move my leg again.. thanks god, I didn't break it. But this time the injury is really serious, I couldn't even walk for around 15minutes, I was only be able to sit at the side of the court, after around half an hour of resting, I tried to stand up and walk, luckily I was be able to walk but it's definitely walking like an old man la. Now I'm sitting here to type this and I still can feel the pain of my knee, sigh.. I think that I really have to stop playing basketball for a very long time already...

Extraction (dental)

I realized that I'm having this wisdom tooth in the right hand side of my mouth in 2007 december, but I didn't really care about it on that time, so I just grabbed some Antibiotics and Pain-killers from the dental and thought that 'alright by taking these, the pain will be gone, so it would be ok, i guess'. Surprisingly yes, the pain has really gone and it caused me almost forget about this in the last 2 months. But, on the 28th feb 2008, the nightmare has began.. my tooth suddenly pain like hell, it was much more serious than the december's case. I've been searching everywhere for the medicines that i got from the dental last time, and thanks god! I've found it.. So without thinking, i took 4 pills of pain-killer which supposingly minimun 2 pills in a time. I thought this could help but no, the pain went on.. I've been fighting with the pain for 3 days straight and finally i made up my mind to go to the dental. This dentist that I know, he is a funny guy, kept on making jokes with me during the operation, and I didn't know how, I was be able to chat with him when he was doing the operation for me.. after the operation, he said this to me 'Hey! You are not a human man, you are my first patient who are still be able/dare to talk during the operation and singing at there!' erm, ya i was watching to MTV during that time, hehe.. Hmm.. is it that possible that couldn't talk or sing during an operation? I was thinking that, this is not an operation which is going to cut my body or my brain, it's just a small operation which is only taking my teeth out, so not a big deal right.. Alright never mind, the story goes on, I didn't feel any pain during the operation, erm, no.. maybe just a little bit, but the most painful time is right after the operation.. oh man, after an hour later and the pain killer has gone, that's really a bloody hell session. That's the pain that I never try before, it's even pain until my tears came out (oh damn it, I shouldn't write this out =.= ) I couldn't even talk and open my mouth on that time.. Ok, after that pain pain pain.. around an hour or two later, the pain have been gone by slowly, and I'm be able to sit at here and type this - a Post that I got no idea about what am I talking about. -.-

What is Emo?

There are some people didn't understand the definition of 'Emo', what is emo? Does it have something to do with the hair, with the attitude, with the clothes, with the lifestyle, with the music they hear or the music they dance to?

No! Emo is not punk, it's not gothic, it's not fashion, it's not style, it's not cutting your wrists, it's not hardcore music, and it's most definitely not a hairstyle.

The definition of Emo is Emotional, but the term is widely mis-used as you can tell, an Emo is someone who cuts for attention, not pain, if someone cuts and doesn't tell any one, they aren't emo, but if they cut and proceed to tell every one, then they're begging for attention thus making them emo.

Also, an emo is someone who will attempt suicide in public, as well as blaming all of their problems on someone who didn't do anything, an emo is also someone who needs to be the center of attention, be it in a hospital or otherwise.

Emo is not someone who is emotionless, dark, or withdrawn, an emo is someone who clearly states their emotions in public and begs for attention through their problems even if the problem is small.

Gothics are people who are dark and usually withdrawn from the public, gothics usually don't bother any one, they usually keep to themselves, they're not annoying, they're not emo, not the true goths any way.

Someone who is emotionless tends to be goth as well, but if you're emotionless, how can you be emo which means emotional? Contradictions are pleasently obnoxious.

I know a few emo's, I know true goths, I know true punkers, never claim you know something when you don't.

Also, for everyones information, some cutters usually cut because they see it as the only thing that will take their pain away, if they don't publicly state that they are cutting, or announce it to the world, then there's no reason to label them as emo.

Only emo's cut for attention, maybe you will learn something from this.

Emo is just an excuse for boys to act like girls.