Injury, ruining my life

About this title Injury, I would have to start it from around 2years plus ago, on a day of the december 2005, injury this word has started to ruin my life. During a basketball match at my housing area, I was injured badly on my left knee, I went for the doctor and he told me that I've damaged seriously on my left knee, he said during that match I was putting too much of pressures on my knee and with the twisting forces, I've teared the ligaments of the left knee. God! From the words that the doctor said, I thought that I could never play basketball again. But luckily after the resting of the few months later, I was be able to play sports again. So the good things went on until it's reached on last year, during the basketball again, I injured on the same spot of the knee again. This time the injury is much more serious than the one that I had, went for the doctor again and he said it could heal but this is going to take a very long time. So alright, I promised to myself that I will quit basketball for a long time, but the problem was I cou ldn't be able to handle the excitement of my body for playing basketball, so I went back to play basketball and I thought that my knee would be ok if I didn't put so much pressures on it. But I was wrong, I hurt my knee for more than 10 times in last year.. I hurt until I didn't want to care about it anymore, everytime I hurt my knee I rest for few days then I went back to play again and again. I've been into this kind of situation for around few months, injured,rest, play, injured, rest, play. Loads of my friends were asking me to have a serious care about my knee, asking me to go for the western therapy or surgery, but I didn't even bother on any of them.. I always saying that 'Ya la, I will go for it when I break my knee.' This sounds kinda stupid right? Finally on yesterday, during basketball again, I jumped for blocking my friend and when I was going for landing, I felt that my body has lost it's balance, I landed with my left leg and oh god, I heard a huge sound of 'Bi-Li-Ba-Lak!!', few seconds after that I can felt the pain is going around on my knee, at that moment I was thinking 'Shit! Did I broke my leg?' all of my friends on the court were surrounding me and I was laying on the ground. I really thought that I've broken my knee.. but luckily around 5minutes later, I could move my leg again.. thanks god, I didn't break it. But this time the injury is really serious, I couldn't even walk for around 15minutes, I was only be able to sit at the side of the court, after around half an hour of resting, I tried to stand up and walk, luckily I was be able to walk but it's definitely walking like an old man la. Now I'm sitting here to type this and I still can feel the pain of my knee, sigh.. I think that I really have to stop playing basketball for a very long time already...