Collision

It's a long story but I didn't feel like talking too much about it, so this is the summarized version. Last night, time around 9pm plus, on the way back to home after 14 hours staying at outside for hanging around, studies and assignment. In the condition of tiring, at the place which I can reach home for around 10 minutes, while I was thinking about something, suddenly the car's tires and breaks were having some problems, car sliding caused me got into a wrong road and the car was slightly spinning to the 60 degree so the car (Volkswagen Golf) which at the right hand side of me banged on my driver's side door. At that sudden, my head banged on the side window, car lost control and went out to the drain which at the opposite road. Luckily the car didn't got into the drain but on the drain, alright, that's all i guess, so now.. enjoy the pictures.. sorry about the quality of the pictures.

The Truth

Personal problems.
Depressed, unhappy, sad.
I don't want to talk about it.
I refuse to speak.
I don't want to think about it.
Instead, I become distracted, and I wonder off through-out the little world inside my mind.
The smiles I put, not the true smile you always see,
just the act I put on for you, so you don't see the pain.
Just frowns, pure tears.
And those deep honey eyes you get lost in, those you see,
I block them with fake happiness, so my misery is hid beneath.
Let me cry.
Let me deal with this pain.
But don't feel bad for me,
don't feel sorry.
Let me be.
I'll be ok, I'll be alright, if you just let me be.
This is real,
no jokes,
no play,
not fake,
pure truth.
Not a scam, or a lie.
Just my actual emotions expressed underneath letters.
I'm not ok.
I can't deny.
But do not worry.
Just let me be who I want to be.
Leave me alone, I need my space.
Don't we all, on those sad days?
Don't try to cheer me up, I'm "cheerful" enough.

Injury, ruining my life

About this title Injury, I would have to start it from around 2years plus ago, on a day of the december 2005, injury this word has started to ruin my life. During a basketball match at my housing area, I was injured badly on my left knee, I went for the doctor and he told me that I've damaged seriously on my left knee, he said during that match I was putting too much of pressures on my knee and with the twisting forces, I've teared the ligaments of the left knee. God! From the words that the doctor said, I thought that I could never play basketball again. But luckily after the resting of the few months later, I was be able to play sports again. So the good things went on until it's reached on last year, during the basketball again, I injured on the same spot of the knee again. This time the injury is much more serious than the one that I had, went for the doctor again and he said it could heal but this is going to take a very long time. So alright, I promised to myself that I will quit basketball for a long time, but the problem was I cou ldn't be able to handle the excitement of my body for playing basketball, so I went back to play basketball and I thought that my knee would be ok if I didn't put so much pressures on it. But I was wrong, I hurt my knee for more than 10 times in last year.. I hurt until I didn't want to care about it anymore, everytime I hurt my knee I rest for few days then I went back to play again and again. I've been into this kind of situation for around few months, injured,rest, play, injured, rest, play. Loads of my friends were asking me to have a serious care about my knee, asking me to go for the western therapy or surgery, but I didn't even bother on any of them.. I always saying that 'Ya la, I will go for it when I break my knee.' This sounds kinda stupid right? Finally on yesterday, during basketball again, I jumped for blocking my friend and when I was going for landing, I felt that my body has lost it's balance, I landed with my left leg and oh god, I heard a huge sound of 'Bi-Li-Ba-Lak!!', few seconds after that I can felt the pain is going around on my knee, at that moment I was thinking 'Shit! Did I broke my leg?' all of my friends on the court were surrounding me and I was laying on the ground. I really thought that I've broken my knee.. but luckily around 5minutes later, I could move my leg again.. thanks god, I didn't break it. But this time the injury is really serious, I couldn't even walk for around 15minutes, I was only be able to sit at the side of the court, after around half an hour of resting, I tried to stand up and walk, luckily I was be able to walk but it's definitely walking like an old man la. Now I'm sitting here to type this and I still can feel the pain of my knee, sigh.. I think that I really have to stop playing basketball for a very long time already...

Extraction (dental)

I realized that I'm having this wisdom tooth in the right hand side of my mouth in 2007 december, but I didn't really care about it on that time, so I just grabbed some Antibiotics and Pain-killers from the dental and thought that 'alright by taking these, the pain will be gone, so it would be ok, i guess'. Surprisingly yes, the pain has really gone and it caused me almost forget about this in the last 2 months. But, on the 28th feb 2008, the nightmare has began.. my tooth suddenly pain like hell, it was much more serious than the december's case. I've been searching everywhere for the medicines that i got from the dental last time, and thanks god! I've found it.. So without thinking, i took 4 pills of pain-killer which supposingly minimun 2 pills in a time. I thought this could help but no, the pain went on.. I've been fighting with the pain for 3 days straight and finally i made up my mind to go to the dental. This dentist that I know, he is a funny guy, kept on making jokes with me during the operation, and I didn't know how, I was be able to chat with him when he was doing the operation for me.. after the operation, he said this to me 'Hey! You are not a human man, you are my first patient who are still be able/dare to talk during the operation and singing at there!' erm, ya i was watching to MTV during that time, hehe.. Hmm.. is it that possible that couldn't talk or sing during an operation? I was thinking that, this is not an operation which is going to cut my body or my brain, it's just a small operation which is only taking my teeth out, so not a big deal right.. Alright never mind, the story goes on, I didn't feel any pain during the operation, erm, no.. maybe just a little bit, but the most painful time is right after the operation.. oh man, after an hour later and the pain killer has gone, that's really a bloody hell session. That's the pain that I never try before, it's even pain until my tears came out (oh damn it, I shouldn't write this out =.= ) I couldn't even talk and open my mouth on that time.. Ok, after that pain pain pain.. around an hour or two later, the pain have been gone by slowly, and I'm be able to sit at here and type this - a Post that I got no idea about what am I talking about. -.-